still life

I don't want much now Just a lower light Something small enough To get me through the night Not a cure, not love Not a cleaner name Just a room that doesn't ask Why I don't feel the same

No alarms, no sirens Don't make me look at this No alarms, no sirens Don't make me look at this

I can feel the soft parts rot Under what still shines I can hear myself go thin Line by line by line I say it like a joke at first Like I don't really mean it Then I hear how tired I sound And I stay underneath it

No alarms, no sirens Don't make me look at this No alarms, no sirens Don't make me look at this

I wanted something soft to end The noise inside my chest But every little comfort here Makes me look away instead Such a pretty way to go dull Such a stupid little wish Just let me be less for a while

Don't make me look at this No alarms No sirens Don't make me look at this No alarms No sirens Don't make me look at this

Please Don't make me Please Don't make me Please Don't make me look

Don't make me look at this Don't make me look at this Don't make me look at this

If I still hurt Then take more If I still want Then close the door

Make me beautiful enough to disappear Disappear Disappear Beautiful enough to disappear

Not holy Not high Not free Just right Not warm Not soft Not held Just light

Disappear Disappear Less of me here Less of me here

Less of me here Less of me here Less of me here Less of me here

I'm not in love I'm just still here I'm not in love I'm just still here I'm not in love I'm just still here I'm not in love I'm just still here

They never have to ask for anything It comes before the word I learned from that, I hate to say it Wanting what is never heard

But every time someone answers I look before I think And every little act of order Pulls me back to the brink

I'm not in love I'm just still here I'm not in love I'm just still here That is not the same Be clear I'm not in love I'm just still here

Still here Still here That is all Still here Still here Nothing more

I'm not in love I'm just still here I'm not in love I'm just still here I'm not in love I'm just still here I'm not in love I'm just still here

You are free You can go Step outside No one says no

I made a life Out of one turn back One more second One more not yet

Whenever I want Whenever I want Whenever I want I can leave whenever I want

I tell myself This still counts I turn the handle I let it down

I made a life Out of one turn back One more second One more not yet

Whenever I want Whenever I want Whenever I want I can leave whenever I want

I can leave I can leave I can leave I can leave

My life is a dream That never ends My life is a dream That never ends

I go back in I go back in The song is still on I go back in

My life is a dream That never ends My life is a dream That never ends

Someone says my name I hear it wrong Someone says my name The song goes on

My life is a dream That never ends It never stops It never ends

I go back in I go back in My life is a dream That never ends